It Found Me

It Found Me
Today started out discouragingly. I was still feeling disgruntled over the fact that the previous doctor I visited did not provide a prescription for my illness. She told me that if my symptoms’—headaches, achey body,fever, muscle and back soreness and swollen glands—worsened that I should return to the clinic today. I did. An annoyingly large white sign on the door of the clinic read, “Closed Saturday, June 5, for high school graduations”. Really? Thanks, Dr. So-and-So. You were obviously genuinely concerned with my condition. My boss at MCT really wanted me to nip this thing in the bud, so I visited another clinic(in the mall—what?!) where the doctor(who clearly knew her chosen field) excluded any thoughts of Mono or Strep Throat—thank the LORD—and pleasantly sent me on my way with a prescription in hand. This was what I needed all along . I prayed that the Lord would give that doctor wisdom and He did. He provided.
This past week has been long—12 -15 hour days keep me preoccupied to the nth power! Learning how to teach children the “MCT Way” is definitely different. All of the new TAD(tour actor/ directors) here seem slightly overwhelmed. How would I know? At this point, we all share the same familiar glassy-eyed gaze. BUT, every new experience is an exciting, new challenge. There is NEVER a dull moment among these people, and ALWAYS a smile to greet you along the way. Yet, I still feel lonely, at times. I still long for the fellowship of my brothers and sisters in Christ. I still question my purpose here and wonder what in the WORLD I’m learning about discipleship and how to advance the Kingdom. In fact, I’ve been discussing that with the Lord all week. Where do my opportunities come from?? How will they come?When and with whom? What can I DO to speed the learning process along? Tonight, during our lecture, “Audition Session”, I was asking the Lord these same questions. And then the Spirit whispered, ever so softly in my ear, “Pray for surprises”. Surprises? I don’t like those. I’m a planner. I like the KNOWN future. However, my heart responded to this command with, “Lord, surprise me. Surprise me this summer”. This prayer seemed terrifying. But, by God’s sweet grace, I am ready for the adventure! Later in the evening, I met up with another TAD here who graduated from VSU this past year. We were never close friends, but we shared a special bond somehow. She went through quite a bit this last semester and any attempt I made to develop a deeper friendship just didn’t happen. We were both insanely busy. However, these last two weeks we’ve talked more often. Tonight, after our session, she and I walked back together. On the way over the bridge, she began to vent. I didn’t know what to say. I wanted to encourage her, but I didn’t know how. So, I began to pray: “Lord, give me the words”. When we arrived back to the dorm, we went back to her room. She, her roomie and I sat and talked about the core of the problems and together, we were able to find some solutions. Before I knew it, her roomie was talking about the Lord, as was she. I had known for a while that she wanted to return to the Lord, but I never realized the opportunity to encourage that growth in her life would come here in Montana. Her roomie has a genuine love for the Lord. I think I must have sat in their room for hours discussing Christ. We particularly discussed finding satisfaction in Christ, common struggles among women, and finding ministry outlets within the theatre realm. When I left their room, I realized what the Lord had done. He provided community! I didn’t even ask specifically for that, yet he KNEW. Again, He is FAITHFUL. This story reminded me of Psalm 37:3-5
“Trust in the Lord and do good. Dwell in the Land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord. Trust in him and he will do this.”
Trust, delight, and commit. If only I could do that daily. Father, your grace truly is enough!

By His grace,

Susanna